the rest is still unwritten

What constitutes an education? I suppose it is the acquirement of knowledge to gain insights into an array of territories, be it mathematics, science, arts or language.

Education breeds knowledge, and hopefully, gives rise to wisdom. It also matures the mind, enabling one to develop an insight into self, and hence guiding one to make wise decisions or actions that one truly desires.

Education provides an avenue of opportunities. For many who are not born with a silver spoon, education is the most legitimate, albeit difficult way, to a promised future. For others, it is a doorway to materialise their dreams, to achieve the desires of their heart, or clichely put, to fulfill their purpose in life.

Whatever the reason may be, the desire to succeed or gain fulfilment in life, is the fundamental drive for one's educational pursuits.

I may not be speaking for everyone, but I speak for myself and a group of like-minded people, that education also carved my character and values to a large extent. For this, I meant education from all environments, be it at home by your parents or seniors, or in a formal institutional settings by teachers and even, your peers.

The daily interactions from my mentors and same-aged peers, for the past 18 years, is pretty much what moulds my thinking today. It is also the very reason why i abhor smokers, believe in doing charity and treasure my close ones.

Perhaps I am being too melodramatic, but at this approaching termination of my 18 year long education, I am feeling a wave of emotions.

Uncertainties and excitement fills me as I look forward to the future. And much like the song, the rest is still unwritten.

Link to the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4lFXy5bIiSA => A very VERY uplifting song, i feel! :) i'm posting the link here cos the uploading took forever.


"Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
To the years where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
To the years where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah"
Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten Lyrics

i don't wanna know what lies ahead

the date of revelation's drawing nearer. and i don't want to know.

So what am i supposed to do with these apprehensions?
You better believe things are changing
And I'm almost mad at myself
For letting it get this far
Once again my heart's in my throat
And i still don't know how I've let this happen
But I'll look past this and I'll turn the page
Keep my eyes on whats ahead
Take it day by day, lets go
I'll look past this
Keep my eyes on whats ahead
Take it day by day
Never will I understand why I've let things get like this
Go, whoa, stop!

single-minded in faith

"2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does. "
James 1:2-7

exams.over.forever?

i can't explain my feelings now.. fell sick last night with a terrible flu and sore throat, right after the exams ended. Felt confident during the paper, but after i submitted it, felt strangely the opposite. Like a typical pisces, i began being over-the-tip sensitive about how i performed in the paper. a sick fearing of the worst came over me.

woke up this morning after a night of interrupted sleep. for some reason, i was awake most of the time trying to will myself to sleep. this is the 2nd time this has ever happened. and i'm fearing that there'll be more to come.

in the darkness of the room, with just a shade of moonlight coming through the window, i could feel the time stand still. freezing in its tracks. no motion and sound around me. the only thing i hear is my own breathing.. for a minute i thought i was drifting into sleep, but something just kept me away from rest.. i can't pin-point what. i just know that my mind's full of endless thoughts, and my body is aching for its due rest.

before i know it, i opened my eyes again. this time the sun's risen, and my clock says ten past nine. how long have i been asleep? don't know. but not long.

my head's aching, my body's still tired, my nose's blocked and my throat feels terribly sore. and my mind, my mind's still full of yesterday's worries, today's burden and tomorrow's uncertainties. why does everything seems to go wrong?

i'm asking God, why am i feeling this way? i'm praying for an answer.. and it has not come.

Is He asking for me to have more faith? or m i to be more patient? probably.

But amidst all, I just pray, that in God's will, everything will be alright.

the end of part I

Just completed my first 5 weeks of attachment..and now it's time to prepare my exams and take home papers for next week!

a)musculoskeletal paper (70% )
b)neuro take home exam (50% )
c)cardiopulmonary assignment (50% )...all due on Wed, the 20th of May! :(

I'm unsure of how the paper is going to be like.. so it's quite unsettling.

Right after this would be my next 5 weeks of attachment at a new place. another part of a long long journey.

7 more weekends to freedom.... counting down and looking forward to my dear friends who will be coming to visit!~ :)

"Trust in the Lord with all thy heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He will make thy paths straight." Pro 3:5-6

recharge please!

i'm just tiredd. feeling the strain of continuous presentations, assignments and upcoming exams..nothing short of exhaustion.. like a car tank running low in fuel after a long haul.

i need rest. sleep. and good food.

abounding sea.... of knowledge!

"To acquire knowledge, one must study; but to acquire wisdom, one must observe."
-Marilyn Vos Savant-

RIght until last monday, i thought orthopaedic physiotherapy is one specialty full of protocols and without flexibility. But ever since the start of my clinicals last tuesday, my view of this is pretty much changed.

Orthopaedic physiotherapy in itself involves much more than applying the standard post-op treatments. It requires an indepth knowledge of the patient's condition and op procedure, and relating it to the anatomical structures that are involved. It is then that one can help improve patient's mobility/strength/range to its optimum, and help the patient return back to their normal daily living.

Understanding the underlying pathology fully and how it affects the patient is one important aspect that i've previously neglected. Now that this clinical placement has shown me the great influence of one's understanding of the condition on the plan of treatment, i'll never see ortho physio the same again.

It's also in times like this that I find knowledge in itself something that is so abounding, so powerful and so important.

To equip yourself with knowledge, benefits not only yourself but also those around you i.e the patient you are treating.

On this note, i've found a new drive for acquiring knowledge. One thing's for sure, there's no end to learning!