exams.over.forever?

i can't explain my feelings now.. fell sick last night with a terrible flu and sore throat, right after the exams ended. Felt confident during the paper, but after i submitted it, felt strangely the opposite. Like a typical pisces, i began being over-the-tip sensitive about how i performed in the paper. a sick fearing of the worst came over me.

woke up this morning after a night of interrupted sleep. for some reason, i was awake most of the time trying to will myself to sleep. this is the 2nd time this has ever happened. and i'm fearing that there'll be more to come.

in the darkness of the room, with just a shade of moonlight coming through the window, i could feel the time stand still. freezing in its tracks. no motion and sound around me. the only thing i hear is my own breathing.. for a minute i thought i was drifting into sleep, but something just kept me away from rest.. i can't pin-point what. i just know that my mind's full of endless thoughts, and my body is aching for its due rest.

before i know it, i opened my eyes again. this time the sun's risen, and my clock says ten past nine. how long have i been asleep? don't know. but not long.

my head's aching, my body's still tired, my nose's blocked and my throat feels terribly sore. and my mind, my mind's still full of yesterday's worries, today's burden and tomorrow's uncertainties. why does everything seems to go wrong?

i'm asking God, why am i feeling this way? i'm praying for an answer.. and it has not come.

Is He asking for me to have more faith? or m i to be more patient? probably.

But amidst all, I just pray, that in God's will, everything will be alright.